I’m at college now!
Wow, this has been quite the experience so far. I really like it here (or at least I think I do), but the transition has been harder than I expected. I thought I would just fit right in with no issues, but I have actually had a harder time making friends and settling in than I thought I would.
I’ve been having a hard time because my roommate has many friends from high school, and I have been having a hard time fitting in with them. Yeah, I have made other acquaintances, but there hasn’t been one person I’ve met that I genuinely thought I could be friends with. When I hang out with people, if Im sober it always feels forced. I can’t tell if everyone feels like that or if its just me though. I really like my roommate, but she just seems to fit in better than I do and theres a part of me that is really jealous of her. I wish I was the type of person that could just fall into place somewhere, but I am afraid that is just not me. I am still trying pretty hard to talk to people and be friendly, but I think I come off as a bitch a lot of times. I really hope it gets better, because right now I constantly have the feeling of being left out.
On another note, the boy situation here is really good. Ive been hooking up with more people than I ever have, and I am having a lot of new experiences. That is one thing that I have been genuinely enjoying. I got with one of the guys on the football team, and I know it sounds horrible but that was something that was on my bucket list hahah. We won our football game on Saturday, and all the football players showed up to the bar that I was at. We all sang sweet Caroline together, and it was kind of amazing. I ended up going back to the athlete dorms (which are REALLY nice) and I spent the night there. It was a pretty fun time.
My classes have been going really well too. I don’t feel as if I have that much work to do, which is weird. I know the semester has just started, but I was expecting a much larger workload. Right now, I only have one assignment due a week, which is really weird. My roommate is in a lot of hard classes, and she is doing work all the time. It honestly makes me feel kind of stupid because I don’t have work to do. I really like all my professors, and they all seem like they genuinely want us to learn.
All in all, I think I’m doing pretty well here. I’m hoping that within the next few weeks, I will settle into a friend group. But if not, I am a pretty independent person and I think I will do just fine on my own. I actually love college.
