Today was better.
I went out shopping in the morning which always gives me some kind of happiness. I guess its a bad coping mechanism that I spend my money, but if it helps, it helps. I will still have enough money for college.
After I went on my own shopping trip, I went out shopping with my family. I really don’t like shopping with my family, and it was kind of painful. I did not find a dress that I liked for my graduation party, which is the most frustrating thing I am dealing with right now. I have put on almost 10 pounds in a few months, which is really upsetting to me. I am telling myself that I am going to lose it, but I truly don’t know. We were at Boscovs today and I was picking up a thing of these lights for outside, and one broke. I don’t know why I was so upset about it but I was. The man that was up at the register seemed really upset about it, so that made me upset. We ended up buying them and they look really nice in our front yard.
After we went shopping we went out to dinner, and my parents only had two fights. I hate family dinners. There is always a problem about something. My mom got upset with me today because I told her I wanted to do some of my dorm shopping by myself. I understand that she wants to be involved in things, but there are just some things that I want to do on my own. This is my first time actually having somewhere to decorate away from my parents, and she is upset that I want to do a few things by myself. I told her I wanted her there for some of the shopping, but she is being so needy about it. She micromanages everything, and won’t let me make any decisions for myself. I just want to do something on my own for once.
